my heart hurts a little

i've been thinking today about jess...

i did a very unhealthy thing....and looked up the article on her death. reading those words...made me relive the moment i found out and the grief that followed.

i remember so much, so many happy times. she was my best friend. i saw her just a week before she died. we were supposed to get together....supposed to get lunch 'sometime soon'.

'sometime soon' never came.

she's been gone over three years. and every time i think of her, it's as fresh as if it were yesterday.

a month

sorry.

i just didn't feel like updating. or writing out everything that is going on. or was going on.

still nothing about our stuff that was stolen. we got an insurance check and were able to replace a few things...but what i want replaced is irreplacable.

i am down to 3 days a week plus saturdays at work now. i'm not sure how this will work, or how long it will work. trying to figure out what to do there...it's more complicated than i care to share right now.

we have a long weekend....we're not going anywhere, so i'm planning to catch up on housework and try and get some more home improvement projects done. we have at least one birthday party to attend this weekend though. guess i should go get matthew a gift lol...what do you get for a one year old boy?

eventually i'll upload pictures to show of what home improvment projects we've done and are doing. except a majority of the pictures were on my laptop...GRR

i'm off to bed, well off to make sure audrey is full and asleep then i'll get in bed.